Seriously?

Yes, I am a huge Grey's anatomy fan. I admit it, but Meredith Grey is not the only one whoever feels the needs to scream Seriously! at the ever lovin' universe.
This year seriously has been so rough. The kids have been sick since the beginning of the year (that seems to have run its course). We had that run in with the IRS...(not everyone is a crook, some people are just idiots. The idiot this time was me.) Chris got laid off, his mom died, my grandmother is ill, my other grandmother was in a car accident, Scott is moving out (actually as of Thursday has moved out) , cash is tight. I just feel like it has been one thing after another. I am sooo hoping that there are brighter days ahead. I do these days feel like standing in the middle of the driveway and throwing my hands in the air and screaming "Why?" but I think that since my neighbors are so close they might call the cops on me if I did that and then that would be just one more thing to add to the long list of crappies that have already happened this year.
I tried this whole positive attitude, things are going to get better. Here I am 4 months later and things really have not improved. They may have even gotten a little worse. But here on the positive side the kids seem to be perking up, the snow has finally stopped and Michael wants to go to sleep away camp. (that is huge) On the not so positive side Chris and I have been totally cranky with one another, I am not really sure how I am going to make the van payment and my grandmother is really sick. I just want to have a month that I do not need to worry about bills. How financially secure do you need to be that money does not drive you insane? I worry everyday about money. I wish that I did not have to. I want to get to a place where we can pay our bills, have enough to live on comfortably and generally if something unexpected happens that we would be able to fix it. I am just not sure how to get to that place. I know that as long as we are in the house we are now that we a slowly sinking month by month. It is like this terrible catch 22 though, we have to fix the house and to fix the house we need money...we have no money but we would if we sold the house, but to sell the house we need to fix the house, to fix the house we need money....etc...and on it goes....
So I say, seriously??? Is this how my 30's are going to be? Seriously? 'cause if so I would just like to know now...maybe take a nap until 40 and see if that is any better.